The stories we tell ourselves: Narratives and EDs
I’ve written volumes about eating disorders over the years–beginning before I was even diagnosed. Most of the writings were personal, private- scribbled by dim desk light as my roommate (any of them)...
View ArticleThe other side of hunger cues: fullness cues
So my treatment team talks a lot about hunger cues and when the return and what they mean. I’m not saying I never had trouble with hunger cues because I did. But hunger cues aren’t the only game in...
View ArticleThe things that take the place of ED
One of the things that helped me the most in recovery was finding something that was as interesting and enthralling for me as the AN once was. As I started to emerge from the AN and from starvation, I...
View ArticleThe trauma of having an eating disorder
It wasn’t long after I returned home to Michigan that the nightmares started. They weren’t overtly frightening or threatening- no boogeymen, no one chasing me. Instead, I found myself back at the...
View ArticleWhy me? Survivor’s guilt and EDs
I was always told that if I worked hard enough, I could recover. With hard work and time, the treatment centers told me, I would get well. I am, by most measures, doing well. I’m not “fully recovered,”...
View ArticleLetting go of the idealized recovery
If you hear some in the eating disorder community talk about recovery, you could be forgiven for thinking that they were trying to get you to buy a timeshare at a resort. Recovery, they say, is where...
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